Wordless(ish) Wednesday

The Caring Crowns Pageant
2/18/2012

Four Years.

Today is a sad day.

Four years ago I lost the woman who I thought was only second to my mom.

Meredith

Last year, at this time, I was still pregnant and didn't know if we were having a boy or a girl.

Did you know my beautiful daughter is named after her?

Well her and one other person.

Emmalee Meredith

My best friend growing up was/is Emmylou. 

So when we named our daughter Emmalee, we altered the spelling to pay homage to her and her middle name is Meredith, after this woman, my second mom.

I know she would LOVE that Emmalee was named after her, and I'm pretty sure she'd make a big deal of it. She would love that she meant that much to me.

I know she was there when Emmalee was born, it's the only thing that could describe my amazing labor.

She's in charge of the crazy storms we get, watch out... if she has anything to do with it, there will be a blizzard today.

She sends us signs constantly. Purple butterflies and dimes in random places.

--- Sidenote: Dave haaaates working where he does because it is honestly below him, but he does it until he can get something else because the job market is terrible... would you believe every night he finds a dime while working!?---

I know she's here, she always is.

I just ask, if you're a praying person, that today you say a prayer for her family and my mom.

It's been four years, but the pain still feels like yesterday.

Keep Up.

I'm exhausted and have about 5 more minutes before I'm going to pass out so here's a quick catch up...

1. We are on our second night of no sleep. 

After bringing Emma to the doctor this morning we found out our poor baby is suffering from teething, a head cold, an ear infection and rug burn on her nose from falling while trying to stand on her own.

Thankfully she is on Amoxicillan now so we should hopefully see an improvement.

2. I'm actively job searching.

I'm being selfish and saying I am so unhappy that I need to take care of my happiness first. Hopefully there will be a couple of changes, can't say for now!, and things can get realigned.

3. We are getting a faaaabulous tax return. 

I can't wait. It will be a 100% catch up. Plus we'll have left over to pad our savings account until we can find better paying jobs.

4. I filled out my FAFSA tonight. 

I am literally 2 classes and a practicum (or equivalent) away from walking for a Masters degree.

Considering our current incomes and debts, I see no reason why I shouldn't get a good amount of funding.

5. I am currently obsessed with the Hunger Games trailers. Someone needs to be my date.

Clearly, the commercial just acme on and I stopped long enough to watch it.

6. I have the next two days off and other than dinner plans with friends, I'm not doin' shit.

<3